Surrender To Remember

I’m sitting here attempting to build this website, and my mind is all over the place. I feel scared and out of my league. I hear all of these thoughts/voices saying things like-
“what the actual fuck are you doing?”
“you don’t know what you’re doing Andrea, just stick to what you know”
“just stick to what you know”
“keep doing what you know, don’t even attempt this”
“you’ll fuck this up, you know you will”
or a better one “why are you even starting, you know you’re going to get bored and quit anyway”

I even stopped doing this, and got on my phone just to avoid working on this site anymore. So, now I’m sitting with this fear. Allowing it to be there, listening to all of the thoughts and watching them float on by, like clouds in the sky. I stop and I surrender. I surrender to remember.

I’ve done hard shit before. I’ve failed before. Actually, I have failed more than I’ve succeeded. I don’t know what I’m doing but I don’t actually care. I’m just trying something new. It doesn’t have to be that big! I’m trying something new. I’m learning how to put myself out there, simply so I can teach myself that I’ve got my own back. That’s all this is & I’m proud of that. I got this, and whatever happens, however it looks, I know that I will be just fine. And so it is.
Thank you for reading. I truly appreciate you, you beautiful perfect human.
Love, Andrea